What's.She.Got

What's she got that I don't have? Ohh..she's skinny. Pfft...how the fuck can I compare? Wait..who wants to be skinny anyway? I like my ass, and my thick legs. His loss right? So why doesn't it feel like that? Ughh! Fuck emotions. What's she got that I don't have? What the fuck is it? I don't understand. I love you, isn't that enough? Or is that too much?! Never the less..this is all bullshit. I'm angry. I don't want to see you anymore. Leave. Get out of my head and out of my life..I want something/someone else. Ohh but my goodness I'm in love with you. You're all I want in a person. Why don't you like me back? What's she got that I don't? Stupid. Stuupid. Stupid.  I'm telling you, all you love birds, don't put all your eggs in one basket. Cuz someone will take them all and smash them. Blahhh. God help me.
-Deuces.

Today.Sucks

I've been in a salty mood for a minute now. Why God? Why me? Today started out horrible and is ending the same way.  This day proves to me how much I need God and positive people in my life.  Ughh! I'm SO ANGRY! Angry at myself and some "friends." Why make promises you know you're going to break. What kind of friend are you? But who am I to complain..my life is not a fraction as bad as other people's. I AM BLESSED to be here, a child of God on this earth. Blessed to be going to college. Blessed to have a job. Blessed to have REAL friends. Blessed to breathe. Why is it that no matter how long and hard I think about all the good things in my life...i turn back to the sucky "moments" of today, or yesterday? All in all...days like today happen. But all I can do about it is have a short memory. Forget. And give tomorrow another chance. Giving all my problems to God and let him lead my life.

On the bright side...today I got certified in CPR and First Aid! and got to spend some lovely time with my new friend Nicole. (: [Hi Nicole] Today is a busy day. Signing the lease to my apartment, finally! (: I'm super excited. I'm moving in June 1, 2012. To all of you who read this, and to those of you who don't may God bless you today and for the rest of your life.
-Deuces.

November.Dreams

The second of Nov. sitting in class listening to my Professor "blah.blah.blah" about something I already know. Praying to God that this class gets over soon so I can go to Track practice. Thinking about my goals for November. What will they be? Hmmm...let me guess. The original "I'm going to lose X amount of pounds this month." Realistic? Perhaps. So, what are my November dreams? (1) Yes, you're right. Lose 10 pounds this month. (2) Ever heard of no shave November...how about no SWEETS [cookies/candy/cake] November. (3) Find a man? Is that important? Maybe? I like being on my own though...So I guess finding a best guy friend is realistic. (: (4) Good grades. Yeah being successful is important to me. Yes, you're going to see me in Magazines one day. Can I meet this goals? YES! God help me.
-Deuces