I fly with the stars in the sky. I am no longer tryin to survive. I believe that life is a prize. But to live doesn't mean you're alive. Don't worry about me and who I fire. I get what I desire, its my empire. And yes I call the shots, I am the umpire. I sprinkle holy water upon the vampire. In this very moment I'm king. In this very moment I slay Goliath with a sling. In this very moment I bring. Put it on everything, and I will retire with the ring. And I will retire with the CROWN, yes. No I'm not lucky I'm blessed, yes. Clap for the heavyweight champ, me. But I couldn't do it all alone, we. Young Money raised me, grew up out in Baisley. Southside Jamacia, Queens and its crazy. Cuz I'm still hood, Hollywood couldn't change me. Shout out to my haters, sorry that you couldn't phase me. MOMENT4LIFE

Sunday, May 27, 2012

3 Day Diet

3 Day Diet Menu – Day One:
Breakfast – A single slice of toast with 2 tablespoons of peanut butter, and a half grape fruit.
Lunch – A cup of tuna with a slice of toast
Dinner – 3 Ounces of lean meat, a cup full of beets, a cup of string beans, a small size apple and 2 regular scoop of vanilla ice cream
3 Day Diet Menu – Day Two:
Breakfast – A single slice of toast with a boiled egg and half a banana.
Lunch – Half cup of tuna with 5 regular saltine crackers.
Dinner – 2 Slices of beef, a cup of cabbage or broccoli, half a banana, half a cup of carrots and regular scoop of vanilla ice cream
3 Day Diet Menu – Day Three
Breakfast – 5 saltine crackers, an apple and 1 ounce of cheddar cheese.
Lunch – 1 boiled egg and a slice as toast.
Dinner – A cup of tuna, a cup of cauliflower, a cup of melon and a regular scoop of vanilla ice cream

Monday, April 16, 2012

Staring over again

Sadly I am my highest weight. This evening I weighed myself & to my surprise I weighed in at 233.4lbs! 😖 WAKE UP CALL! I haven't been this heavy since Summer 2010! This needs to end now!

Sunday, April 8, 2012


On April 4th marked 2 months until my BF comes back from Basic Trainning for the National Guard.  I am so excited. I can't think about anything else.  We write back and forth && I'm literally counting down the days. LOL. But anywho.  2 months until my baby come back and I need to get my summer body going.  I've been putting it off for way too long && I can't be going out to the beach in Racine looking like this. O_o Ahem, yes! Ohhkay, so I needa get my shyt together. 
 That's all I have to say about this subject.


Tuesday, March 27, 2012


Losing weight is my top priority right now. I'm doing everything in my power to be sexual & thick. [NOT FAT!] So tomorrow is my HBBC update day on Youtube. Getting on the scale for the first time since Sunday. Praying that imma be down 8-9lbs. Please GOD! Please.No one knows how much this means to me right now. Summer coming up hella quick & I need to be lookig right af for myself & my man. Got compliments that I looked good today. [I hope they aint lying] Surgery put me back a lil but, but you know damn well I aint giving up anytime soon.
Wish me luck.
"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." Exodus 14:14

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Day.One---> Atkins

So I've come to realize that if I dont have a plan, I am planning to fail. That's what I've been doing for the last 8 months. When I did have a plan something drastic happened && I could actually stick with it. That being said I'm starting ATKINS! This is so weird for me to say outloud. I feel so prepared to do this && I want nothing to stand in my way! I've tried Atkins before && I worked so now I'm motivated to try it again 6 years later. Now that I'm 20 I need to start thinking about getting my life in order. I'm almost half-way thru school && I crave to be successful in my field. On that note, cheers to my new Atkins Journey! (raises a glass of water) Wish me luck!

Friday, March 23, 2012


I cannot stand being this big. In the 220s is too much fat. I honestly want to disappear && return when I hit my goal weight of 177lbs. The little things are stressing me out. Like the sound of my legs rubbing together in my pants. My boobs popping out my bra because my boobs are too big. The ponch in front of my body. The cellulite. My fat face. Its all driving me purely insane.  I just want to get this journey done and over with so that I can move on with my life! I wanna be a strength trainer but no one is going to want a FAT perso telling them how to build muscle and power. That just isnt right. I'm so sick of being this way.  The worst part is that no one (none of my friends/family) understand HOW HARD IT IS TO LOSE WEIGHT! Like they truly have no idea.  I mean they might say they do, but I know they really don't.  Its so hard!

Everything is stressing me out. I mean I  am seriously considering dropping out of school to get my health straight then going back when I'm in shape. This weight loss is preventing me from doing anything else. Its always on my mind, driving me crazy! How much longer will this last!?

Thursday, December 15, 2011


How have I let this happen?  How have I let all my bad habits come back and get the best of me.  Last year this time I was a completely different person.  A person with the right mindset, working out daily and eating healthfully.  Where am I now?  Where have those perfect habits gone?

The first thing I want to do is blame others.  Blame my job last December that made me work 3rd shift.  Forcing me to eat to stay awake. Blaming Debot for being all-you-can eat. [Seriously..freshman 15 is easier than you think]. Blame everyone else for being skinny and being able to eat whatever they want..and watching them thinking its so not fair. And blaming God for cursing me with this horrible fate.  [Why me, God? Is usually running through my mind everyday] 

But in all reality i should just be blaming myself.  [No. no. Don't say it.  I'm going to be hard on myself because I need to be.]  Its me who controls my daily routines.  Its me who controls when I eat and how often I work out. 

So this is me now...taking control of my life.  Getting back to the way I was last year.  Starting fresh. This is real life.  The realist you'll ever see me.  Judge if you want..but that doesn't make you a better person. Haters gne hate.

Don't worry, I'll just use that as MOTIVATION.